So it's probably time I give everyone an update on our boy. If you want the background info, you can read my last post, here: https://www.iveyink.com/blog/2019/2/24/baldurs-saga
Sadly, the results of Baldur's biopsy were not good. He has stage 3 hemagiosarcoma, which is an aggressive vascular/bleeding cancer. With treatment, he has 4 months, tops. Without treatment, we would be looking at a matter of weeks.
We started him on chemo last Monday, and he is getting other medications in addition. So far he has done well - eating enthusiastically most days, and excited to go on walks and see his friends around the neighborhood. That in and of itself makes it worth it - he is already feeling better than the few weeks before he had his spleen out.
I'm finally able to sit down and write this now. Obviously, we were devastated to receive the news. We've both cried a lot, and it continues to creep up on us at times. It would be hard enough just dealing with this, but the timing makes it worse. We are preparing for the death of our first fur baby at the same time as we are preparing for the birth of our first human baby.
In an odd twist of fate, our oncologist has twin 9 month old daughters - and he lost a dog to cancer shortly after they were born. If anyone understands what we are going through, it's him. I think that he will be a great help and comfort to us, especially as things get harder.
So, what does this have to do with writing? Because Jason and I now have limited time to spend with our boy, and on top of that will also have to be spending a lot of time preparing to welcome our baby girl, that means something has to give. That something is going to be writing. I'm not saying I won't write at all during this time - the great thing about having a laptop is that I can sit on the couch with my boy and do stuff on the computer. But emotionally the spark will likely not be there and I'm not going to force it.
This blog will become sporadic - maybe even disappear for weeks at a time. I wanted you, my readers, to know why and to know that I will eventually be back. But for now, I need to focus on myself and my family.